Wednesday, 25 April 2018

today

25.04.18


Today was lit, semua benda jadi at this particular date
jah jumpa mr doggy, kitty and skali mr snakey

yes jemah jah jumpa snake klo hri jah x lit dia siap pusing2 guys

jemah panic nk mencarut mak ajar suroh sabar... jah try istighfar jah atill panic

i nak share cite ni keepada satu dunia.. after i got my fyp topics then aku jumpa mr snakey.. seems like a bad idea to do fyp LOL

fyp got me like= semua events/ stuff happens

tpi kan i have a feeling theres few reasons why this stuff happens
i feel like mcm jah bnyk dosa in sense of like being so self-centered or maybe to selfish in life

talking about schizophrenia with my lit classmates made me have mini conversation with myself that life can be incuarble for some people


and that is hard lah bc going through life with medications all the way.
i think that why they have suicidal thoughts because tak tahan anymore
so denganazam yg gigih yg au ada is to sabar with the dugaan that i am facing today
jumpa mr snakey, mr doggy, mr cat and mr FYP so all together at once.. sngt msuk ke hati jemah

and what a day.. i hope today aku lebih tenang dripada hri yg lain= menerima dugaan hidup yg alah setakat jumpa those 4 apa lah sntgt.. noo big deal
its a huge deal to me.. i dont believe in superstitious but i do beleieve that this will traumatised me.. is that a word idk
that momen will be graved or implemented into my memory yg kuat ini for the rest of my life
Chennai express punya pasal jemah phobia dgn mr snakey
aku sikit lagi nk terpijak that being.. naseb tak klo tak aku rsa i would be bitten and be the most dramatic human alive..
im surprise that the person in fornt of me was so chill
aku mmg takboleh live in a nature bound punya area.. i would enjoy my nature bound or anature in general from pictures
i dont think im strong enough to experienced it again with other creatures ... jah cannot

zoo yg dlm cage xde ha;; ni you ask me to experience first hand =jah cry
fake or nah its how i would react

to end this day
jah give one  nasihat lha

dont focus on your phone too much takut terpijak snake.. plastic takpe  jgn yg real sudah oh and its a never good idea to sit opposite to your crush because obviously dia akan nampak  LOLOLOLOL

Monday, 23 April 2018

i am sorry-Mr pangkor guy( maybe its love)

assalamualaikum

today jemah nak share something  that i have been feeling .. it has been accumulating since justin bieber got back together with saleena gomez.
 the thing is i have been feeling as i was being followed by someone and i would always bummped into this guy yeah
let me just get into the details about the guy he is pretty hot ( auummmm gitu lol HOT) muka dia x mcm mcm tyoical chinese although he is actually chinese and dia sngt sweet bila dia senyumm... dia mmg klo jln dgn dia ounya poker face or just the normal face.
Jemah yg x tahu malunya pi said hi to his face like twice ok bro DUA KALI DUEX, er dua babe... i was like takut aku nmpk mcm desprate sngt asyik nk hi kt dia tpi dia x penah langsung hi kat aku so 
this guy either he 
is shy or.
he is into me? lol sbb asyik pandang.. nasib aku x ckp why do you always look at me ? do you hate me that much? or what
few encounters with him made me realiseni was not invisible to tge words eye because yiu are always in your room
then dia tinggi badan ala2 swimmer and dia pakai glasses  te best part is dia bot o my criteria yang dia ada e is tall and e is a pendiam
onestly very pendiam and ciil engineering babe
bnyk kali aku ckp aku tak ngam dgn budak engineering like as a partner or smt but i ended up liking an engineering dude
so i know noting about im but i really tink e actually ae a girlfriend because once e was eating wit tis girl and guess wat dia org cakap punya la skit aku rasa te girl yg banyk cakap
O YA QILA STALK diorang ro ar away tapi still nmpk guys
aa aca x suka kat muluttapi dalam ati mcm bunga bunga gitu
sebenarnya mcm ni dia  d bnyk kalai tgk aku dri au i know ok aku pon usya kodri au abang ciil
so dia follow aku since last year and asyik umpa kt pintu alan sama and also dia klo terserempak mesti nak look at me and look at my ace

jemah was like dia ni syok kt aku ke?
so ater a lot o discussions and opinions asked rom most o my riencds and een my moter
tey all said to ust gnore and agan perasan sangat x semua org tgk kkta maknanyer dia suka kita
So I have decided to not like him anymore
mcm acah jer kan... sbb aku yg start dulu ckp Hi and dia jawab aka respond...
so aku mcm oh dia ni ok dgn aku so why not proceed with friends.
Then ....sambung next entry